I am NOT happy. I am actually UNhappy. Id rather be indifferent than actually unhappy. I went to sleep in a bad mood. It doesn't usually carry through to the morning but this morning it did. I woke up in a bad mood. I was at least looking forward to watching the Saturday edition of the Today show but golf is on (exacerbating my unhappiness).

Then I get on blogger. 2 new posts from UN. I chose the to read "Not all Black Men". I read it. Now this is why I KNOW my current state of mind is pretty fucked up... I read the blog and its all positive and great. And I didn't get the usual feeling of hope that usually comes from his posts. I actually synically thought to myself "Well you and your wonderful male friends should join the I Exist Support Group with Santa and the Tooth Fairy". (No offense UN, its me not you...)

I'm going to close the blinds, pull the blanket over my head and try to fall back asleep and try to wake up in a better mood.